this is my life..

perak itu boring+jauh dari orang yang kusuka+tiade kehidupan+rokok yang bersepah+pil yang bertaburan+tiada masa untuk tidur+mata yang sakit+bersama rakan+nasib yang sama+kerja yang bertimbun+jiwa yg kosong+pergaduhan yang sentiasa terjadi+melukis+menyanyi+menari+seronok+indah+kehidupan yang sebenar+minda yang sentiasa dikatakan pelik+dipanggil kerek+dinamakan arkitek+tiada masa nak mandi+duit digunakan seperti sampah+masa makan yang sangat susah untuk dinikmati+orang yang memahami+simbol yg dipanggil "infiniti"= hidup aku

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hye..i have not write anything for some time...i just dont think i have time to write freely anymore...i spend more time killing myself...im taking pills...smoking like eating..what i have been doing this past months are all shit..i feel sorry for myself but seriously..even when i think what i am doing are giving a real bad impact to myself..i do not really care...i just want to live my life the way that it leads me...i do not make my own road...well not after i was accepted to uitm seri iskandar...my life is nothing but a walking shadow...so shakespear was right...but still i do not feel any satisfaction yet...


ouh yeah..since i barely have time to write...i spill all my thoughts in one section..cool huh...

by the way...it has been a long time since i really fell in love with someone...the last time i could remember was my 1st love...haha..damn mengarut..okeoke.. by the way...for me to love someone will be something called freakishlyplutolikerareoccassion...duh...feelings..who can describe others feeling when they can not even describe their own feeling...feelings show..not in words...unless you are shakespear or someone that is very poetic as he is then feelings = words..freak ass...ouh..i have not mention her name yet...let it be something to ask about..wee~

ouh..hey..i got this one week off from university...so on saturday...i went to watch movie with her...it was very not emotional meeting after a long time cause she just laugh at my hair..im bold..sooo...but yeah..i do feel the love i guess...then on monday i went out with affiq..on wednesday i went out wif my schoolmate and guys from uitm..=]..cool and exciting..but all the week never feel perfect...fuck this emo feeling..i miss my love...i was planning to make some suprise meeting but still something so fucking annoying keep coming up...so we can not get whatever we want in life but holding her in my arms are all i ask for...sory for not coming to see you..i hate myself for that...

i really do not feel like returning to perak now...if only this off day last for a week more than i will surely spend every moment i can with her...she really makes my life better..


end my blog here guys...till i write again...

p.s. all the long stuff on myspace...both long and short stuff on blogspot..=]

=.=

lol...perlis is where i am now...

visit me anytime guys...

pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaasse....

this place is fucking damn bored but still people here are crazy....

still happy as i can be...

but still missing my place a lot..

googoo

ok..no update for like a week or so...

life pretty much don't offer anything new so nothing interesting to write though...

but still...

i guess there will be an awful lot of update once i moved to Perlis...

wait for me guys...

p/s:i hate moving but i love being far away from my family sometimes..

today~

perlis...a week away from this day...

wish me all the best...

and im still hoping for a miracle that can make me go to uitm shah alam...

p/s:just got back from a badminton game...i suck pretty damn much..8]

a word that speaks

hye

hello, how's life...wonderful enough to be happy..?

yeah...i guess so...last week was a blast of happiness...but still i miss my chance to say farewell to my gud friend who flew to france last sunday...

ouh...that's sad...but i doesnt matter...she understands it dearly i supposed...

i sure do hope so...

well now...how about your love life...anything intresting..?

urm...i dont know...same old same old i guess..its been long since i fell in love...i guess i was like...2 years ago...i dont even know how beautiful it is anymore...

uh..thats is kinda sad...

it is...maybe i should ask someone to hook me up..damn...but still...i prefer being like this for the very moment...maybe i'll find someone better in my life...

hey..wait...what about her...?

ouh...urm..im very good at making women hate at me...i guess it's better for me to ignore till she hates me...then i'll try to make it up till we become friends again..

i see...that is so you eventhough it's kinda wrong...it really is up to you...

yeah...well...im going to perlis this 28jun so maybe something good will happen..im putting my hope on it..

good for you then...life will definitely go forward...eventhough you want to go back..it just wont be the same anymore...thats how life works..

got that...

im blabbering...

i know...

any topics...

nope~
ouh yes...an update..

yupyup...

till next time...

bye~


taken from my myspace blog dated- June 10 2008-

ouh today

hye guys...an update...again...will i ever get bored of this...hell yeah...

so..i went to hotstage gig today...a great event in a small hall...go figure...so i start leaving home at some 11am..or something like that..arrive in klsentral..waiting...a friend of mine..

know what...i hate writing biography...so on with the gig...

so i went in the hall around 2pm...ouh yeah...the gig starts way long before that..who cares...came in...trying to move to the front..end up standing in the middle because it was so damn packed and all the guys were like moshing around..a reminder...dont start mosh right away when u enter any gig..it will really get you wasted pretty damn fast...i know cause i usually do it...go me~

ok...anyway...on to the drama...because i was so wasted i went out to get some fresh air..not so fresh i must say because of the smoke...but still...no complaints cause i smoke too...go me~ again...i went back up the hall being refresh...on the way up..there this guys yelling stop to me...i guess..and said 'bro..nk tshirt...'
i replied with a blur face on 'uh..next time a bro..tga penin pale a..=]..'

seacrh for a place to sit..have a sit...then came afiq...with no glasses on..it was weird but i guess because it was beacause of the moshing..he did went to the stage...then he look at me with a grin and said 'nap..speck aku ilang dow..camne aku nk blk huh' ouh...it was around 7pm at that time..so on skipping the bla bla part...we decided to head back after buying a t-shirt...

blablabla...afiq used my glasses which dont give any effect at all..he cant even see the road sign clearly and still asking which way is the way...fuck him..well..at least i got back home safe and sound...writing this thing...

p.s. i dont really have much to do at home...

until next time...

taken from my myspace blog dated-may 26 2008-