hye..i have not write anything for some time...i just dont think i have time to write freely anymore...i spend more time killing myself...im taking pills...smoking like eating..what i have been doing this past months are all shit..i feel sorry for myself but seriously..even when i think what i am doing are giving a real bad impact to myself..i do not really care...i just want to live my life the way that it leads me...i do not make my own road...well not after i was accepted to uitm seri iskandar...my life is nothing but a walking shadow...so shakespear was right...but still i do not feel any satisfaction yet...
ouh yeah..since i barely have time to write...i spill all my thoughts in one section..cool huh...
by the way...it has been a long time since i really fell in love with someone...the last time i could remember was my 1st love...haha..damn mengarut..okeoke.. by the way...for me to love someone will be something called freakishlyplutolikerareoccassion...duh...feelings..who can describe others feeling when they can not even describe their own feeling...feelings show..not in words...unless you are shakespear or someone that is very poetic as he is then feelings = words..freak ass...ouh..i have not mention her name yet...let it be something to ask about..wee~
ouh..hey..i got this one week off from university...so on saturday...i went to watch movie with her...it was very not emotional meeting after a long time cause she just laugh at my hair..im bold..sooo...but yeah..i do feel the love i guess...then on monday i went out with affiq..on wednesday i went out wif my schoolmate and guys from uitm..=]..cool and exciting..but all the week never feel perfect...fuck this emo feeling..i miss my love...i was planning to make some suprise meeting but still something so fucking annoying keep coming up...so we can not get whatever we want in life but holding her in my arms are all i ask for...sory for not coming to see you..i hate myself for that...
i really do not feel like returning to perak now...if only this off day last for a week more than i will surely spend every moment i can with her...she really makes my life better..
end my blog here guys...till i write again...
p.s. all the long stuff on myspace...both long and short stuff on blogspot..=]
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